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Throw the Motions

Lots of change. Lots of starting over. Over and again. Here and again. Again. Again. Watching the words and my hands and wondering if any of it will stick this time. Throwing the motions at the fridge. Hearing the slap. The pause. The pause between silence and the fall.

A Closet I Will Never Have Clothes In

I’ve spent the past five and a half months trying to make things work with someone who did not have the capacity for a relationship. I kept making excuses for him in my mind: work is crazy for him, his kids are the most important thing (which is true), he has past hurt and pain that is hard to overcome, etc. But I have found that if someone wants you in their life, they will choose to include you. There will be no second guessing as to whether they want you. It takes two seconds to send a text message. A short phone call takes minutes. I don’t care how busy anyone is—if someone is important to you, you make time. Whether that time is a phone call or a text message or a date night. I’ve been more than accommodating and have bent over backwards for this person in the name of love. That love has not been reciprocated and has, instead, been pushed into a shoebox in the back of a closet that I will never have clothes in. There is a point where love is no longer love, and is, in fact, attach...