THE BLUE TERRANCE by Terrance Hayes

If you subtract the minor losses,

you can return to your childhood too:

the blackboard chalked with crosses,

the math teacher's toe ring. You

can be the black boy not even the buck-

toothed girls took a liking to:

this match box, these bones in their funk

machine, this thumb worn smooth

as the belly of a shovel. Thump. Thump.

Thump. Everything I hold takes root.

I remember what the world was like before

I heard the tide humping the shore smooth,

and the lyrics asking: How long has your door

been closed? I remember a garter belt wrung

like a snake around a thigh in the shadows

of a wedding gown before it was flung

out into the bluest part of the night. 

Suppose you were nothing but a song

in a busted speaker? Suppose you had to

    wipe

sweat from the brow of a righteous woman,

but all you owned was a dirty rag? That's

    why

the blues will never go out of fashion:

their half rotten aroma, their bloodshot

    octaves of

consequence; that's why when they call,

    Boy, you're in

trouble. Especially if you love as I love 

falling to the earth. Especially if you're a 

    little bit

high strung and a little bit gutted balloon. I

    love

watching the sky regret nothing but its

self, though only my lover knows it to be so,

and only after watching me sit

and stare off past Heaven. I love the word

    No

for its prudence, but I love the romantic

who submits finally to sex in a burning-row

house more. That's why nothing's more

    romantic

than working your teeth through

the muscle. Nothing's more romantic

than the way good love can take leave of

    you.

That's why I'm so doggone lonesome, Baby,

yes, I'm lonesome and I'm blue.