Everything Will Be Okay

I've spent the past several weeks full of worry. For my daughter. For my parents. For my finances. I just spent the past two hours budgeting, canceling any subscriptions that I could, and applying for part-time jobs on top of my full-time job. I am very concerned, as many other people are right now. Everything feels so volatile. I'm not sure what to do. All I want is to be able to pay my bills and have a savings account. I went without home internet for a full year. I finally broke down and got it again a couple of months ago. I'm already pausing it because I simply cannot afford it. I am very thankful for my job, and I know that if I stick it out, I will get paid more as the years progress. I just need to keep my head down and keep going. Everything will be okay. I'm done mourning my life and my past. Life isn't what I thought or hoped it would be. That's just how it goes. I have a job, I have a home, and I enjoy the company of a couple of cats and a couple of friends every now and then. Perhaps that is all I need. I'm supposed to have surgery next month, and I'm wondering if I should cancel because of the cost, but I really need it done. I need to make sure everything is okay, and I need to stay on top of my health. If I can stay on top of things, perhaps it will make the cost easier to bear. Who knows. Everything will be okay. I applied for another position at work. I am not sure if I will be considered, but I have to try. My dad has another ablation on 9/11, and this is the final attempt. I really hope he finds relief. My daughter turns 18 in less than one month. I cannot believe it. Everything will be okay.

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